Recently, something happens.... Which I dont wish to happen but still.... Its happen. I admit, it does affect me alot in a way or two. I thought I m strong enough to face it. I m not. It have been reflecting in my mind over and over again. I couldnt sleep well... Cant get into sleep. Once I close my eyes, I will just think of it. Its much more tougher than what I thought. I really think of giving up.... But I cannot be that selfish. I had to think of him(you know who you are). I just wondering who can think of mine.

You all can heehee haahaa chit chatting, sleep soundly, what about us?!? Deceitful!!! If that is the case, it shouldnt be starting it. Everyday had to face it. Wondering how long can I hold on to?!? I find ways to deceive myself or I should say all the while I m deceiving myself. I m full of stress now.

I really appreciate the support my friends had given me. Friends around me try to ligthen me. I really want to thanks someone. She listen to me, talk to me, support me, encourage me. Every night I cant sleep, she chatted with me till 4~5am. She's no other than my Dearie. Thanks Dearie, for lending me your listening ears. I might sound stupid at times, even throw temper at you, I'm sorry.

I still have a long long way ahead for me to walk.... I hope I m able to cope with it. Am I able to??????????????